Tuesday, 25 December 2012

Christmas Day 2012

Mum stayed in the hospital for a week and was ultimately confirmed as having had a full stroke. Fortunately, she's home now and recovering very well.

It's our first Christmas since Sue died. We spent yesterday evening with her boyfriend, Paul, and had a really good time, thinking both to the past and to the future. Today, mum and I have been alone together and have had a quiet, peaceful and very enjoyable day. We miss Sue very much but her essence is evident everywhere and we both feel reassured that she is out of pain and safe from harm

Happy Christmas to all.


Sunday, 11 November 2012

A further 3 hours in A&E before a doctor came to see her. She's having a brain scan done now.

Saturday, 10 November 2012

Back In A&E

Mum's not well. She shows signs of having had another TIA. We waited 3 hours for an ambulance.

Back in The North Middlesex Hospital's A&E Department, surrounded by memories crowding in on me.

Mum says she can feel that Susan is very close. I can't feel her presence, but I feel her absence very, very strongly.

Saturday, 29 September 2012

A Welcome Visit

It's four months since I lost my lovely sister. I miss her so much. Today, as I opened my bedroom curtains, a robin flew at the window, stopped just the other side of the glass and hovered directly in front of me, flashing his gorgeous red breast. I didn't even know robins could hover!! Then it sat on the roof-ridge for a while - lingering much closer and for much longer than I've seen one before - before flying back into the trees.

Sue loved seeing robins in the garden. It really felt like she'd come to greet and reassure me.

It was a great way to start the day.

Wednesday, 12 September 2012

I Miss You, Susan

"What's the good of news if you haven't a sister to share it?" - Jenny DeVries

I had a good time in Liverpool with friends. I have so much to tell you.

I just wish I could.